There Were Times When I Wished You Were Dead

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1. Aomi

   Lilian is a great example of a victim who is about to turn villain herself. Endured torturious treatment both physically and mentally for years long, only to loss her mother cruelly, the symbol of goodness in her life. Though she got to kill the main culprit for revenge. But it was a quick and easy dead that hardly can called the deserved ending for inhumane scum. Since no culprit left to take vengence and no love one to live for, she seek to end her suffering life. But even the request she put her last hope in him, Karloi disappoint her again and refuse to kill her.
   Forced to keep living with the grieve that keep fester her heart day by day, in the end, that festering mind will either make she give up to up hold her mother’s last word and commit suicide or turn her into madden villain that yearn for destruction of everything that related to her misfortune, the empire that fill with cruel nobles and criminals, the magic kingdom that fill wirh magicians who produce mind control magic. Etc

   04/01/2023 at 9:51 am

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2. CieloAzulEstrella

   I feel no remorse for him at all and I agree with her. She shouldn’t even have cared about him in the beginning.

   04/01/2023 at 1:16 pm

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3. Bob

   If you enjoy an endless cavalcade of pain and suffering, this Manga is for you. If you want a romance, GO SOMEWHERE ELSE. THERE IS NO ROMANCE, ONLY TORTURE.

   04/05/2023 at 12:15 am

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   1. Cesia_Sama

      I strongly agree..its really a torture

      08/26/2023 at 7:36 am

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   2. Nikitian

      Exquisite, lovely torture that just goes on and on and on, without letting up the pressure for a single moment. Definitely recommended to those who enjoy that sort of thing. Possibly enough to make a Dark Elf blush romantically.

      Also, the manhwa gets better over time, and… let’s just say the above comment is several months old now, and the story may finally be advancing to new places, and maybe even a closure. But to get there, you’d need to read past the torture, so emotional masochism perk is still recommended as a prerequisite for reading this piece.

      10/22/2023 at 3:59 pm

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4. Gojo's wife

   You want to do something for her? Then, Either kill her and end her suffering or let her go and find her own happiness.

   04/05/2023 at 8:49 pm

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5. Aomi

   In a sense, it’s a perfect twisted relationship.

   04/08/2023 at 2:23 am

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6. Aomi

   I wonder why Karloi or Alexis didn’t think of start war to crush Vernie kingdom completely. Consider this is the second time they casue tragedy for both of them. Is it bacause they still don’t have enough military strength to start war or they still busy with tragic aftermath?

   04/08/2023 at 2:29 am

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   1. Passerby

      Because he’s actually scared fighting FL father he’s weak mentally

      And now he’s dead ML want to kill him 5 more times because he know he’s dead and he’s not scared anymore because dead can’t fight back

      04/08/2023 at 2:47 am

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   2. Passerby

      It’s just one place the deluah’s territory and he’s the emperor so it’s not because of the military strength

      04/08/2023 at 2:50 am

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      1. Aomi

         I think we have a misunderstanding here. I mean Vernie kingdom, not Deluah. Vernie is an hostile kingdom to Karloi’s empire, locate next to Deluah’s territory. It’s the one behide the tragedy that lead to Karloi’s grandfather dethronment. Also the source where many posion and magic use for enslavement created there.
         And the most recent event is they mobilized their army to empire boarder when Deluah declare revolt, but turn back due to empire’s allie army move to intercepted them.
         All the strange magic and posion that cause all kind of trouble in empire also come from Vernie. But they play innocent as mocking the empire.

         04/08/2023 at 3:42 am

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7. Passerby

   The only ending that I think the readers would want is FL dying in his hand and him suffering more

   04/08/2023 at 2:52 am

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   1. Aomi

      We also need Vernie kingdom destruction. ??

      04/08/2023 at 4:02 am

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8. Omega Dragon

   Spoiler for those who wishes for a bad endingthey will get together again… After some separation.. but yeah, they will get together.. but it wont be a fluffy ending..just two adult with mental and physical abused.. what u expect

   04/08/2023 at 4:46 am

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   1. Aomi

      Is there explaination why is that happen?since each of their very existance are the reminder of pain and suffer of the past, why would they be together again?seeing each other face should serve nothing but open the festering wound in their heart.

      04/14/2023 at 12:20 pm

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9. Silver75

   I have almost never hated a character as much as the ML he’s a dam hypocrite even he’s servants where able to see that’s something was not right and the ML was the only blind man like a blind man for Revenge on something that was not there and the quote for Gol.D rogers applies here why does child needs to receive the blames of the parents

   04/08/2023 at 2:24 pm

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   1. Aomi

      That’s how the flow of hatred work. As you said, why should the child bare the sin of parents? They are entirely different individuals. That’s very true…from the POV of outsiders. But the fact still there that the child are production of the sinner and there is undeniable that they are related to sinner. If we look from the POV of victims or those who affect by sinner’s wrong doing, it is also understandable why would victims harbor hatred toward sinner’s child too.
      For example, imagine yourself is Lilian of this chapter. If somehow it discovered f*cking Duke Delauh has another hidden child? The blood and flesh from that inhumane who has the look so resemble Duke Delauh. Wouldn’t Lilian or you harbor hatred toward that child too? It may or may not to the point of wanting to kill the child, but at least you won’t be able to get along with that child. See how it works?
      ML and his people treatment toward Lilian, while it’s condemnable, it’s also normal thing to happen since they harbor so much hatred toward Duke Delauh. And Lilian who is as Duke Delauh’s child and unable to convey her real intention or truth, would naturally become subject of hatred by ML. Why? Because they can’t reach Duke Delauh, so the present of his daughter is like a super tempting target to release their over flowing hatred toward Duke.

      04/14/2023 at 1:16 pm

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10. Aomi

    Karloi can take responsibility by simply kill Lilian with his own hands. But the pathetic guy still so selfishly cling to her life. Keep her alive is also a form of torturing her. Torturing both Lilian and himself. What can he compensate her at this point? Honor or title are no use for her, even the wealth is also meaningless to her. Does he going to go crazy to the point, anything from Lilian is fine even if it’s hatred toward him? Why can’t he at least offer her a peaceful ending? ???

    04/14/2023 at 1:28 pm

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11. Aomi

    See? She is not happy at all.
    You think you save her and lessen her pain, but from her POV, you took away her mean to escape her suffering.

    04/15/2023 at 3:35 am

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12. Aomi

    Where is Duchess Alexis when we need someone to kill Lilian?

    04/15/2023 at 3:50 am

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13. Passerby

    I don’t know what will happen anymore I’m happy because that ML shit is suffering but why the hell our FL is also suffering

    04/15/2023 at 9:01 am

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14. noothu oblivion

    i see everyone saying that ML is trash he should suffer but is that really tho i know that ML messed up but he also suffered his whole life at least FL had her mother to live through at the start but who did ML had no one. Iam not saying that FL suffer more or ML did, but i don’t get why everyone hates ML this story feels like telling in lot more prospective of FL than ML. if you look into it carefully actually FL had some good memories whit her mother tho she has suffered a lot but ML doesn’t have good moments( I have never seen him really happy) and has suffered his whole life. I don’t want both to suffer, it doesn’t matter if they are together or they just break up, at the end I just want them both to be happy. This is just my opinion, what do you guys think…..

    05/11/2023 at 12:06 pm

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15. Emberlord

    😭😭

    05/13/2023 at 12:51 am

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16. Cesia_Sama

    Don’t do that be happy😭😭😭😭

    05/13/2023 at 4:35 am

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    1. Aomi

       Though it’s not happiness, but death can also grant peace. For someone in Lilian’s situation and mental status, enternal rest is more appealing and seem reachable than happiness.

       05/13/2023 at 10:44 pm

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       1. Cesia_Sama

          Yeah…😓

          05/14/2023 at 7:09 am

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17. Aomi

    Do it. Jump and find your rest

    05/13/2023 at 11:57 pm

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18. Zophia

    Looks like she hates her father. Or is she a legimate child.
    It is getting interesting.

    05/17/2023 at 10:21 am

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19. Silver75

    Do it Jump and Leave the problems that others made for u behind

    05/19/2023 at 1:21 am

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20. Sweet

    So suicide was his redemption? Wow

    05/20/2023 at 5:21 am

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    1. The Goat Sca

       Well this mf got no brains to begin with 😑

       05/21/2023 at 11:40 pm

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21. Sweet

    So suicide was his redemption? Wow..

    05/20/2023 at 5:21 am

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22. EastNewSound

    zzzz todo se resuelve con que la fuerze a la cama y le de un hijo y listo .

    05/21/2023 at 10:15 am

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23. ∆VIOLET∆

    Almost happy ending 🔪😶

    05/27/2023 at 8:22 am

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    1. Hz B

       Sike!!!!!!!

       06/22/2023 at 7:22 pm

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24. Aomi

    Since being together only remind them of bad memories and guilts, it’s better to be apart.

    05/29/2023 at 12:23 am

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25. Aomi

    Can’t say that is a good mind setting to keep on living. But since those around them all just yell but can’t offer any real solution, they should just shut up!!!!
    It’s so annoying to see them yell and get in MCs way all just to have them keep living on with their suffering scars.

    06/03/2023 at 10:34 am

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    1. Hz B

       Welp sike!!!!

       06/22/2023 at 7:36 pm

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26. Sweet

    I have been rereading this comic and now it hurts 1000 times more 😔

    06/10/2023 at 6:48 am

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27. ∆VIOLET∆

    Why Author~~~ why u trying to write for the FL to felt overthinking after she almost found a peace of mind in her broken heart 💔

    06/10/2023 at 11:01 am

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    1. Hz B

       A key to peace hahahaha

       06/22/2023 at 7:42 pm

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28. Hz B

    Hahahah it’s funny to see how they drew her annoyed expression while reading the book hahahaha. Far from what I imagined while reading the novel yet still it’s funny.

    06/22/2023 at 7:51 pm

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29. Hz B

    I forgot to comment during the salt bae meme hahahaha

    06/22/2023 at 7:42 pm

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30. Hz B

    Good job author for angering the readers hahahha

    06/22/2023 at 7:51 pm

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